"a road can lead you many places"
My spiritual journey began when I was indirectly struck by lightning at the age of 16. During this time I faced immense internal turmoil as a result of being raised Christian while struggling with my sexuality in the eyes of God. I felt I was an abomination and questioned how I could be struck yet not killed if it was so wrong to be who I was.
Belief and connection was always paramount in my life and I was worried how that would change because of the way I was born. This sent me spiraling into questioning life, belief systems and what it means to be a child of God.
It wasn't until 22 when I had my first psychic reading that things started to escalate for me. In retrospect, the reading was less profound in its content that the direction it pointed me towards. I was told that I am a clairsentient (having the ability to feel and sense emotions in others) and given information about my ‘guides’. Armed with this information I careened down a road trying to understand what all of this meant. At no point did I feel afraid or as if on unfamiliar terrain.
"It was like breathing for the first time..."
...and made total sense. I read as many books as I could find, and bought angel cards and crystals. I discovered an amazing group where an ascendant master was channeled each fortnight. I was the youngest person there but it became my regular means of learning and connecting with others on the same path.
This continued for another year until one day at work I felt a strong energy connect to my heart, pulling me forward. I was overwhelmed with emotion. Things quickly evolved in my life and I knew that I could not continue to do things as I had been. I quit my job, sold all my possessions and bought a ticket to Nepal. There was something aptly metaphysical about leaving my home country of South Africa for the first time and heading straight for the Himalayas. On no level was I prepared for what the culture shock I would encounter. I connected with people there and secured an English teaching job at a school in the mountains, while trying to make sense of what drew me there and my connection with Source.
Three weeks later I had to return home grappling feelings of incompleteness, almost as if I had failed. I got another job, however the experience of leaving only strengthened my spirituality. It continued to become more powerful and I vividly recall walking home one evening bathed in the light of a full moon, wondering what was next for me. I realised I could no longer switch off this side of me, it became impossible to t turn my back on who I was. The door opened and it was time for me to step through and see what was on the other side.
South Africa was not the place to be without the possessions I had sold prior to leaving for Nepal, and I had to decide to lay down roots again or leave. I made a new friend who had grown up in Bali, and knowing I was craving a more spiritual connection, suggested I go to Bali. Though unconvinced, I ordered a Lonely Planet guide and found myself on a plane there three months later. I had no goal, no idea how long I would stay or what I would do in Bali. All I had was a return ticket out of practicality, but other than that there was no forethought other than that I had to go.
Bali turned into four years of my life. I met too many people to even remember, had experiences, realisations, learnt lessons and grew in ways that I could never begin to understand. I call Bali the ‘kidneys of the planet’ as it is a place of cleansing and regeneration (hundreds of ceremonies are performed by the Balinese daily to purify and sanctify, making the energy inherent to the location). I even tried leaving twice but its energy drew me back as I was clearly not done there yet.
In Bali I was nurtured to trust my spiritual gifts and use my sentient abilities to help others. I slowly started to offer readings and sessions and in doing so built confidence and trust in myself. Many times I felt extreme loneliness living in Bali, but believe that it was in these moments that I gained glimpses of Source and a deeper spiritual connection.
In 2015 I felt it was time to leave Bali. I followed my heart and ended up in Australia for a relationship. My network kept expanding and in September I was invited as a special guest speaker for an event in Canada. This opened doors for me to travel to the US, and when my relationship ended, I moved to Los Angeles for six months. This time solidified my trust and belief in myself and what I stand for.
Afterwards I traveled to Hong Kong, a city that holds a very special place in my heart. My plan was to stay for three months, but this turned into 13 months of total growth and putting what I know into practice. I made many close friends, and established myself with major hotels and companies. Following my heart once again, I am now based in Austria.
My spiritual journey has been hands on. I end up somewhere in the world staying for a few weeks to months, learning from people and about the culture and land through experiences and self-realisations. The journey has never been easy yet it lends itself to rapid, extreme transformation.
I was submissive throughout childhood and inclined to live in the shadows of others; as I have travelled and grown, I’ve become comfortable and confident in my own skin and belief system of connecting to my own truth and understanding of what makes us spiritual beings.
My core passion is to help others through the same process – to be all that they are. Weaving together all our lifetimes, energies, experiences and emotions into what we are fully and entirely capable of.